time reali pass tt fast.. it's been more than a mth since i first step into haagen dazs.. times i have dere quite fun.. but the most unexpected is going to happen soon.. i've got this feeling tt situation will happen frm the day i got my job..
i rmb in my previous posting i did mention tt i'm in love wif one of the guy.. but..
to tt guy i've memtioned: recently.. i found out tt i'm oni ur backup.. someone tt allows u to fall back on.. tt hurts me wen the news come to me.. no one will exactly noe how i feel.. frm the start i didnt plan to hide my feelings.. i've been truthful to u.. trying my best to love u.. but.. but u're so temperate towards me.. u could be so caring towards me at a moment.. but the nxt moment.. u're so cold towards me.. when u nd my comfort to cover ur emptiness in ur heart.. u'll treat me so well.. if not.. u'll treat me as though nothing has happen.. well.. i'm a gal too.. i might look as if i could handle everything even if the sky falls.. but who noes how am i in the inside.. i might break down if this goes on.. i'm a gal!! i nd to be loved, pampered and cared too.. tis relationship is too hard for me to cling and continue.. i'm not a tool tt could b used over and over again to cover u emptiness.. i hate to sae tis.. but for now.. i've gotta go my own way.. i nd to be alone for a period of time.. tis may take a year or two.. during tis period of time.. it might be hard for me to walk alone.. but isnt tis better den both of us(.. or i should sae me )to be struggling in tis agony.. u may feel nothing.. but i still have to tell u tt i'm sorrie....... frm now onwards till the nxt time we meet..(or maybe not..) i'l try to avoid meeting u as much as i did in the past.. actually.. thinking back.. i guess it wasnt too bad too for u and serene to get tgt.. both of u made a perfect couple... i truly give u two my blessings..
i guess i feel a little better after getting tis matter off my chest.. but i still feel a little upset.. but wat can i do.. tt's my fate i guess.. others can sae lots abt how cutee they feel i am.. they can flirt wif me.. but wound still takes time to recover.. as i've injred sooooo deeply.. i guess tis might take months or even year for me to recover.. wat to do.. i'm always a fool when it comes to relationship..
